That place between

I haven't been keeping up with this blog, but I do make notes from time to time of things I imagine I'm going to share with you - about birds and kids and living off-grid in the forest. I may never share them, but the intention is there, so stick with me and I'll do my best. Let's talk about what I have been doing that has kept me so busy, though. For those that don't know, I have conquered a lot in the past few years. I give myself a pat on the back for that, because giving myself a pat on the back is something I can do now. I am stronger than I think I have ever been in my life (mentally, but physical is next, which is why I've been seeking out a weight bench). I have worked really hard and opened a lot of boxes filled with a lot of demons. I have been through about 15 lifetimes for my 36 years of life. I have been in some of the darkest places anyone could be in - and now I'm in some of the brightest. My anxiety is down about 80%. My d...

I spend a lot of my time competing with my toddler for my computer. She likes to slam the laptop shut and smash the keys when I'm trying to do something. If I happen to have computer time without tiny fingers, she will find a way to beckon me over for bouncing on the tiny trampoline or running up and down the tiny staircase her grandpa Nick made for her. Right now, at 8:30 on a Monday night, I am having a moment of time because her dad is holding her. The problem is now that I'm free, I have no idea what I had been trying to get out all weekend... I did jot down notes. I have notepads I carry around in my pocket and my purse and leave in places for easy finding. I have pens and pencils and all of the tools I need to keep my thoughts together. When it comes time to sit down, I find myself either unable to find these notes or I find myself deciding that all of the scribbles no longer make sense like they once did... Writing is a part of me. It is what I think about when I...